We survived our first Father's Day w/out Mark. The kids are still to young to quite get Father's Day, but we were out at the Lake like we always were. Their Uncle Mike (my brother-in-law, Mike Myron) joined as he is now in Columbus, OH while my SIL and nieces and nephew are still in Omaha awaiting their house to sell so they can join him as he got a new job in Columbus. It was good for all of us. Mike wasn't 'alone' on Father's Day and neither were we. I got up early this morning, while the kids were still asleep, and had a chance to sit on the dock for a while watching the sun rise. I had my iPod with me so I could listen to the music that I 'needed' to hear at that moment. I was able to enjoy the serenity around me while reflecting on Mark. Also, I finally got an opportunity to spread some of his ashes in the Lake like I have been wanting to do. Up until now, there just hasn't been the 'right' time...and it was very fitting to have done it on Father's Day. Though there were many tears shed, it was really a peaceful feeling.
Here is a copy of the memoriam I had put in today's Indy Star from the kids for Mark in honor of Father's Day. I absolutely love this picture of Mark. It was taken about a month before he died while on a hunting trip in Washington with his Dad. It is such an honest picture of him- his charming smile with that twinkle in his eye.

And here is the link: http://www2.indystar.com/cgi-bin/memoriams/index.php?action=show&id=6546&category=memoriam
This has me in tears. You are a strong and remarkable woman, Jeri. I think Mark is very proud of what you are setting out to acomplish and the way you are being so strong for the children. I think Father's day was the perfect time. And it's good you had a few moments of reflection and calm to work thru some of those feelings. One day at a time.
ReplyDeleteAlso, I'm glad school is going well. You're going to do great!
Can't wait to see you this week!! :)